I just got off the phone with my sister who basically said God has given me gifts and I haven't used them when I've actually witnessed to, shared the gospel and prayed for people constantly since being born again in 1999. I told her I was trying to get a job that I could handle bc of depression, for the grocery store or Target and of course she comes back with aim higher. I already don't want to live on this planet and I don't want to be alive. 

Because she was questioning me, I made the mistake of telling her I think it's time and that the rapture could very well happen by the end of the month. She glossed over it like I said nothing. Her husband Paul works at Whole Foods in DC where the mark of the beast was basically rolled out in the last month. I said that was written 2,000 years ago and it's happening and she went into something about how Im being negative and she doesn't think God's cruel and would do that. Plus all this other unbiblical stuff and it's hard. I think I've been dreading this for so long because I knew deep down she wouldn't receive it which of course makes me question what she will have to endure. Same with my younger brother. 

It's getting very real and difficult.

Still battling very bad depression.  Thank you for the financial help you've sent as well as prayers. 

Steve M