Hi Doves,
Been out for a while, as
first, seems as if by body is getting more afflicted.
I have lost my ability to speak now in a normal speech
pattern. Sometimes hard to understand me and hard to
speak correctly. I am more and more on my bed and
harder to be any kind of active. I now have switched
to a church that takes 5 minutes to get to, being driven by
members there, and 5 minutes home. I now just don't
drive. I don't cook for more than 10 minutes as too
weakened and feel like I am falling. Two middle toes
on left foot are now black and just today on the right foot
the same toes began hurting in wincing pain.
I am in pain while sitting
in the female area, not UTI I am told, concern of cervix and
vaginal potential cancer. The doctor has expressed
concern so being x-rayed Tues and loads of blood work.
Also I am down to 1 and half meals daily. I hurt if I
eat more than that. I just cannot do regular meals
anymore thus Thanksgiving is out and so will
Christmas. I cannot handle food past 3pm or be out of
home in the evenings. I need to be home by 12ish or
become extreme weak and unsafe walking. The Doc
expressed worry of obstruction in the stomach and did my
pre-cancer turn into cancer now as my Barrett's disease,
esophagus once again suffers with renewed reflux pain.
I am not able to lift much at all now and be
strategic in house cleaning. I did also learn I do
have Sleep Apnea and my seizures still occur.
What I can do is watch the
news, pray a whole lot and have kept up with all the
testimonies of the impeachment. I am one who doesn't
take sides as I believe we people really never know all the
true facts but God does. My job for me is to go tell people
about Jesus and in turn do what I can in the process of
making disciples. I feel our world is in such a mess
now and our Lord told us it would get to this stage and
more, thinking of Matthew chapters 24 & 25. So
sorry for those of you who support President Trump, but, for
me when I first learned of the Deal of the Century and all
that entails it and what it leads to, my heart sank. I know
that Fay has been marvelous in presenting this Deal or 7
year Peace Treaty for Israel and her neighbors. I
also do not see anyone on the Democratic side as well I can
support. I grieve for our nation as lived long enough
to see the many changes culturally, spiritually and
politically on a downward spiral. Unless there is a
last minute revival, I see us headed to become so split and
divisive and becoming a 3rd world nation under the judgement
of God.
I saw someone brought up
the previous Presidents and they getting before a TV station
to all Americans due to the civil angst our nation is
facing, was curious to me and I have an uneasy feeling about
all of this. By the way, regarding exposed of materials
regarding the Bidens, I have yet to see any news from Fox or
elsewhere about it and I am not familiar to the one used to
make this statement. That would be huge and I am sure
it would be all over the place. All I know to do is
pray a whole lot for our nation and for ALL those in
authority. Scripture mandates us to pray so.
Anyway, my heart is with
all of you Doves... I read when able to sit long enough to
do so. Should the Lord take me home at anytime soon, I
will have a friend write on my behalf to you. You all
are tremendous people and a great family in Christ who serve
Him well.
Patty Hayes