Charles,A response to your letter:Yes, There are others that feel like you. Your writing was almost biographical of my life over the past few years.....Speaking of "few", Take the time to read the verses here under the word "few", and let the Holy Spirit speak to you through them. I believe they will answer the "Why" implied in your question. Especially the verses in the Gospels of Matthew, and Luke. In Particular, Matthew 20:16. Thus the difference is you are among the chosen few (The Bride), but many are called (Those invited)********** (Revelation 17:14)These shall make war with the Lamb, and the Lamb shall overcome them: for he is Lord of lords, and King of kings: and they that are with him are called, and chosen, and faithful.Read also revelation 19, and note the distinction between the chosen bride, and the called (Invited) guests.God bless