Fay,
	That was extremely disquieting.
I realize that it will come at some point.
I guess I selfishly desire for it to not be right now.
I say selfishly, because my reasons are not purely noble, e.g. not necessarily for the lost in the Middle East to have a revival first, and many saved.
It is more like realizing how a war there, would affect my life, here.
That, to me, sounds selfish, which then make me guilty.