Wow...I've
said it many times, all you 'math whiz' types make my head spin! lol. I
just do not speak 'numbers'. But that is why we have those of you who
do...we can't all be the same 'body part'. :)
I just remember, when I became so very aware that (in my shameless 'geek' vernacular)
"there
was a tremor in the force", and I KNEW things had changed....that
summer I first heard of/saw BHO....*shudder*. Then, when Oct. 29, 2008
came and I again, KNEW it 'meant something'. It really kills me that I
just scribbled notes to myself on whatever paper I had laying on the
desk, because now I don't have any real record of what I'd noted. Even
when I'd send things to my MIL or my first 'Dove Bro', it was on my old
hotmail acct., and that was all deleted when it was hacked. So, other
than me repeating the few things I remember, or maybe Ron or others
remembering me saying things, all I have is the thought that April of
2011 seemed so very far away! Now, here it is, 'at the door'. Wow.
I
keep remembering my daughter's nightmare(s) about the 'planet' next to
the sun, getting closer and closer to the earth with each passing day,
she said we were standing on our front porch, looking at it, and she
was crying, and said, "I always thought I had more time"...mourning the
blessings of our life here on Earth, of getting married, having kids,
all the stuff that will be missed when we are taken out of here. Even
though, as a believer, she knows how much better things will be, we
are, by nature, as most children can be, a tad 'greedy'. We are
'spoiled'. Having had so many wonderful experiences with the beautiful
creation He has given us, we are 'at home', and can't help but want it
all. As a mom, I am selfish. I want to see my kids all 'grown up' (all
are technically 'adults'), I'd love to see them all married, with
families of their own. I want them to experience that. And even with
faith, there is always the fear of the unknown. Change always freaks me
out a bit. There are definitely days when I just want to 'go
home'...but too many days I feel like the kid dragging their feet, not
wanting to leave the playground, not wanting the party to end...
But,
here we are, in the year I 'saw' way back before I was a Christian as
the year that 'something major was going to change the entire world'.
And the coming month and year that my simple math came to when using
Oct. 29th '08 as 'an important date'. Again....Wow.
I guess
we'll find out soon enough if we do have more time to enjoy the bounty
and blessings our Lord has given us, or if we will find our real, true
reward with Him.