Garry,

That was powerful!

You had written:

HAVE YOU BEGUN TO HATE WHAT LIFE HAS  BECOME ?............

Yes, I have. In fact, I have also begun to hate the true nature of my own heart, more and more:

Jeremiah 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

Romans 7:15 For that which I do I allow not: for what I would, that do I not; but what I hate, that do I.

  18 For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not.

When the trumpet blows, or I pass first, I will finally, and forever, be completely separated from my old nature.

I do long for that.

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