Your home is supposed to be your castle a place to come home too, a place to relax and gather strength to enable you to face the world another day. However, what goes on behind a closed door would amaze you. When persecution comes from your own household, it is very much a challenge because there becomes no place to recharge your batteries.

The hardest to endure is when you are being persecuted by so-called Christian family members, who think just because they believe in God that they are saved, but their lives show absolutely no fruit. When you do not march in the family army the way, they desire, they will suddenly turn on you, and you discover that you have become the enemy. You are austere-sized and verbally reprimanded; privileges are with held any you are passed over for any promotions, you are constantly being put on the carpet and given THE lecture, when you do not give the proper response, they will en-aide other members in the family army to help win or bully you over. I feel like I live in a communistic country in my own home. In communistic countries, the government controls everything. And, as in a communistic country if you do not follow defined procedures, you are punished. Party-members become quite verbal, mean-spirited and controlling. You wonder how a Christian could say or do such stuff to another Christian, and then you have to remind yourself that they are not saved. In my family and I am sure there are many families like mine, (Jesus said the gospel would divide families), the gods ruling the roost are selfishness and mammon. All our conversations include money and how to increase it. My husband is the General and my recently moved-back-home daughter, (who does not have a job) is the Lieutenant, and I am the scuttle private.

I am a born-again, bible believing, rapture standing Christian. I am not employed, but am looking; I attend a very good church that works with street people. So by faith I give my hard-earned  time (rebellion) to the church.  I go one afternoon a week and Sunday mornings. Big Deal!

Because I am unemployed, I can give no money, God forbid if I should help feed the street people and not give my daughter bus money or my husband his well-earned  steak.

I recently brought home some extra food. I do not do this often, but I would rather bring it home then throwing it out. My self-centred 23-year-old daughter tossed the food back in my face and said she does not want anything from that church.

 

What to do? When I have said something in the past, or tried to explain that if you want God to bless you have to bless others. I was told to shut up and apply it to myself.

Any advice? I am not surprised about the persecutions, In tough times people get tough.

But what is hard is I cannot  find a place or time to spend with my God. All my time must be accounted for, and I have to report in, no wasted time allowed.

PS. Not quitting just venting

 God Bless Debbie